Growing in Community...

So many times I find myself relying on God, and I think that you should know that it is totally not something I do by choice. Unfortunately this is one of the biggest struggles that I have and I realize more and more how much greater my life would be if I did just let it go. Very unsurprisingly I find that when I rely on myself I end up backed against a wall, it may have something to do with the fact that I am weak, helpless, broken and many other things we needn't delve into. I write all this with a really good point, I promise. About seven months ago I found myself in just this predicament. I needed to move and wasn't sure were I was going to move. God did his thing and I ended up meeting a man who had a vision for community living in a property that he has in Norristown, and he was willing to welcome me and Juliana into this budding community. I was so grateful to God in this moment for having provided for us-as he ALWAYS does. The community living thing I could have lived with or without it.

To be quite frank I thought that whole community living thing was trendy in the christian world and I just wasn't all about it. I thought ok, I will live here get to know some people, do some fun stuff but still go on about my life as planned. Little did I know what God had in store for me. I had never expected to make the connections and build the friendships that I am building. I have learned that even though it may be trendy to live in community its also hard work. But I have also learned that despite this it is still something that I really want to pursue on a deeper level. I want to learn more about my "homies"(an abreviation for housemate coined by Jim, one of my homies) and my neighbors. I want to learn more about Jesus and I want to learn more about myself.

As has been a resounding theme in my life, God had something far better planned for me than I could have ever done myself. God new that at first I would be uncomfortable and that I would contemplate moving out and even look for ways to make that happen. He also knew that I would come around to the idea that I would be an active participant in this whole building community thing. I have come to accept that maybe this is trendy but it could be because it is a really cool thing that helps people grow in unexpected ways. I am happy with where I am at right now in my community but I think something more powerful is that I am excited to stick it out and grow with it and am excited to see where we are in another seven months.

Too much fun and too little sleep

Every time Juliana goes to her dad's house people ask me what I think they do and I always say that I anticipate she had too much fun and too little sleep. This weekend that was my story and I think that having too little sleep and a glorious amount of fun isn't such a bad thing after all. In fact, I think that Juliana has the relationship that I wished I had with my dad growing up. I think that she is blessed to have such a wonderful developing relationship with her father and that he is really lucky that she is an awesome person to hang out with! I can truthfully say that this weekend was the best weekend I can remember ever having! I had way too little sleep and more fun than I can even begin to describe.

Interestingly enough part of the fun I had this weekend involved traveling to a corner of my mind that I seldom think of. It involved opening my heart and sharing with absolutely lovely women what made me who I am today. Sharing my story and spilling tears and learning about their struggles I was a able to remember how genuinely human we all are. I was challenged to work through some of the those things and I heard about some of the things that my (old and new)friends struggle with. I can honestly say that I was surprised and uplifted by what I learned and heard. I know that God put me there this weekend because he knew I needed it.

Just last week I was thinking about how hungry I am to be back in a group like the ladies Bible study I attended up until recently. I missed having the freedom to just pour it all out if I felt like it and I missed being in an environment where I can feel free to take my smile off and let my tears flow freely. There is something so powerfully uplifting about feeling free to be vulnerable with people who you know love you and genuinely care about what you have to say as opposed to that oh-so superficial "how are you doing" that you get at the grocery store.

I may not have had the kind of fun Juliana has on her weekends with her daddy but I certainly have returned from my weekend in the woods with a joyous and lighter heart than I went down with. I am so grateful for the new friends I made and the hobbit birthday getaway I was able to experience. Cheers to catching up on rest with my little sunshine this week!

Another Year

The anniversary of the best day of my parents' life is rapidly approaching. The day that they welcomed their daughter into this world is one that they will never forget-I will make sure of that! In the weeks leading up to my birthday I thought that I wouldn't really be excited because all of my milestones in my youth had been fulfilled- 16, 18. 21. But nope, I was wrong! I am still just as excited to celebrate another year of life. I look forward to my birthday just as much as I do every year!

I think that part of my excitement comes from all that has happened in my life in the past year. I have built many new relationships and have gotten several steps closer to achieving my education goals. I think that rather than being upset that I don't really have any more milestones to come in the near future I am excited just that I have completed another year in  my lifelong journey and am still headed in the right direction. Juliana and I have had some road bumps along the way and moments when we didn't know which end was up but something that has never ceased to be true is that my God has always shown us the way. It's so amazing to me that no mater what happens and what we do and how many times we turn away from Him, He just refuses to turn his back on us. He loves us through it all and man does He do it well!

So cheers to another year of life completed and to God always being my rock through it all!

Congratulations Mom and Dad, you have been parents to the coolest person on the planet for another year and many more to come ;-)

Reflections on motherhood...

One of the things in my life that I am learning to embrace more and more is who I used to be compared to who I am now. I think this will be something that I continue to enjoy and witness as the years go by. There is one aspect in particular that really demonstrates to me how just plain clueless I was and that is motherhood.

Last night as I lay cuddling in my bed with my little sunshine I thought about all of the things I swore I would never do. I remember even when I was pregnant and hearing children screaming in the grocery store thinking about how that would never be my child or even talking to my friends about how I would lay down the law in this way or that way with my unborn child. Here I am almost three years into this whole motherhood thing and I have no idea what I was thinking back then! I have the Juliana and I have our own rhythm in this world and that no other mother daughter duo in this world can be just like we are. I learned that we have an understanding and that we get each other. She knows not to horseplay with me or to talk back but she knows that she can horseplay with the Fechos and her dad and she knows that sometimes I make mistakes when telling her what to do and is learning how to respond without talking back(most of the time). She also learned how to wrap me around her little finger, perhaps not as well as she has learned to wrap her daddy, her Mimi or her grandma around her finger but it really is shocking how good she is at her craft.

I think that the most exciting thing about learning how to be a mother to this wonderful little girl is thinking what's to come. I remember picturing what our relationship would be like when she was just a baby. I planned certain things like getting fancy together, doing hair and painting nails and putting on glittery dresses :-) I didn't plan however to be looking at bugs up close and personal or to be watching my daughter sing into a mirror channeling her inner soul singer. I didn't plan being a mother to an artsy nature girl. I think that this is the path we are headed on and I realize now that I am okay with that. I think that entering into the world of motherhood is like no other transition has been in my life. My life post-Juliana has certainly been a roller coaster but if given the option to do it all over again there is no doubt in my mind that I would get on this ride a million times over!

He always has a reason...

It's really crazy how things work out! I have been on several interviews in the last few weeks and I have been greatly discouraged. I am blessed to say that I have a job and am able to provide for myself and Juliana, however I want to do far greater things for us thus I have been searching for a bigger and better job. I learned today through the grapevine that for one of the interviews I went on they were already planning an inside hire and just needed to interview outside possibilities for appearance purposes. I learned that the other job I interviewed for has a really mean boss. After hearing these things all I could think was "Thank God!" Here I am stressing and wondering about why I can't seem to land one of these better jobs. I am thinking to myself why is it that these jobs aren't coming through? Is it that I smell bad? or that I am coming off rude or that they don't like me? All along I am wondering what is wrong with me and come to find out, God is in control and knows far before me why I am not getting these opportunities!  My ultimate realization is that God is protecting us and caring for us in greater ways than I could even begin to realize!

Chantelle.

What's your blog?

We are very excited to anounce that thanks to Becky's help we have learned how to spell excited(mispelled in the previous post, and now corrected)! And, oh joy! We are pleased to welcome our inaugural member, Rachel! I'm glad that we have captivated you with our oh-so interesting selves!

We have started a blog to keep you posted on our lives but more importantly we would like to know about you guys! Do you have blogs? If so, can we follow you? Please post your blogs in the comments section if you would like us to know more about you!

Have a happy Friday friends!

Hello World!

After serious discussion with Juliana, we have decided to have a joint blog so that we can share our adventures with those that love us and just can't seem to get enough of us. I know, you're excited! Hopefully we will be able to come up with interesting enough topics to blog about.

I look forward to this new world of blogging and following people!

Chantelle.